Hell pt. 2

A few months ago, I blogged about my nine months of hell , and I thought I'd give you a quick update of sorts.

Well, since April, things have been hard. Still hard. I struggle with my appetite and my face. Both. So for all y'all sakes. I'll keep it short.

Part 1: My face is doing alright. In the past few weeks, it's gotten worse, I think, since I've been trying new organic and natural things for my face. I've gone from using mostly chemicals (like Clinque's face cleanser line) to all natural things (whole honey, canola oil, witch hazel, coconut oil, etc.) They have been working wonders. However, it's not enough. I still have problems and I still struggle. I still feel the need to wear makeup everyday to cover the terrible scars that have been left on my face. My new, painful acne has gone down on my face, but the scaring is still there. And, instead of breaking out on my face, my body has found new places like my back, legs, and chest. It's fan-frickin-tastic. Just kidding, it sucks. But, through all this pain, I'm still learning to just let things roll. People tell me my face looks fine, but I still think I have a long way to go. Eh, oh well, if I was perfect now I wouldn't have anything to strive for ;)

Part 2: My stomach. It still struggles. When I wrote that last time, I was on an uphill climb. I was doing better and better with each day. And I did, for a while. I stopped eating kids meals and started eating regular adult meals. For some reason, I have been doing worse and worse lately. I think it might be something with the food I'm eating. I think I might still be allergic to something which sucks. Oh well, cutting things out of my diet is SO FUN. Just kidding, it sucks. But, my parents are both dieting right now, so we have lots of health food in the house. Hopefully, I should be able to figure out what's bothering me quickly. That would be wonderful.

That's it for the update. I hope it wasn't boring as hell. If you guys like to pray, I'd really appreciate prayers. It's hard for me to eat and to feel comfortable in my skin. It's getting better and better. But I"m a long way from where I want to be. But this isn't my doing, it's Gods. I know that he is leading me to big and amazing things, but while I'm on the path I can only see the next couple inches. Pray for strength and courage for me to take the steps in the dark. I trust him.

Thanks for your time. I really appreciate it.
Carly

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